I love him but every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known

I love him... but only on my own 

I miss the stoplight kiss. It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life. I miss holding holding your hands. It comforts me that you are around.

Hindi mawari ang gagawin - 

Habulin ang kulimlim na ningas
O magkubli't yakapin ang damdamin?
Tatakpan ba ang isipa't pipiliting umasa
o tumalikod sa puso kahit maglaho ang saya?
Tumakbo nang tumakbo at mapagod sa pagsunod
sa isang alapaap na waring ayaw paabot;
O patuloy na kumapit sa pangakong hatid ay kirot
at bulagin ng huwad na ngiti ang libu-libong lungkot?
Kahit himig kang bumubuhay sa lumbay kong mga tiklada
at sukat sa aking liriko't bilang ng mga linya;
Liwanag man kitang gustong manatili
sumalungat man sa mundo't ipaglaban sa gabi
Walang mangyayari...

Pagkat hindi mapapawi ang lindol sa dibdib
Huminto man ang pangarap kong tala sa langit
dahil langit man ay abot ng aking paningin
kailanma'y hindi ako mapalilipad ng hangin

siguro nga, marahil...
dahil bituin kang hindi tatanaw at mahuhulog sa akin
lumuha man ako upang ika'y abutin
idalangin ko mang taimtim at buong-pusong ibigin
na ako'y paliparin ng pasubali kong hangin.

My heart always skips a beat whenever i hear my phone rings for a message, more for a call. Then it sinks when I see that it's not you...

It is always a nice feeling to help people in need.

A significant friend's cousin, a 13-year-old child, is currently suffering from stage 2 leukemia, and is in dire need of blood donors due to profuse bleeding. Thank God I have siblings and friends who are more than willing to share blood, though it is all our first time and we all have busy schedules.

I feel for the child, in the sense that I am also scared to die. It is a morbid thought indeed, realizing that all of us will go to that "destination" one day, though we just don't know when.

This is not the case of this kid who was given only 6-8 months to live, way back November 2011. It must be dreadful counting hours and days, while you are bed-ridden, getting weaker and weaker as minutes pass by.

Life is short. But it is long enough for us to live and be alive, to feel all the love and blessings in our life, to appreciate all the people we have in our whole existence and to extend an arm just to help save a life, even in our own little way.

Friends will always accept the whole you. I'm just glad that they do. :)